Music Monday 12/02/2018

hello!! here is the music lineup for this week!! i hope you enjoy the selection, please tell me what you think! x

Veins (Acoustic) // Fyfe • the beginning of the song just makes me feel so satisfied. oh my!!

You can cure this pain, slipping through my veins …

XO // Eden Project • i can’t figure out why i like this song, but it’s just catchy!

‘Cause “we’re in love but just don’t know it yet” …

Wouldn’t Mean A Thing // Bruno Major • this is such a beautiful song, but it’s still really alternative which makes me happy 🙂

I could find the buried treasure of ancient kings, but it wouldn’t mean a thing without you …

I Watched You Slip // Panama • this song came up as part of an ad and it seemed relatively good, so i ended up saving it. it’s not too bad!!

I watched you slip right through my hands …

So Lonely // Jorja Smith • her voice is so beautiful and this song is so deep. i’m sinking in the depth of this song!!

Feelin’ out of touch, lost my way …

Boy // Anne-Marie • i love this song!! it’s funny and boppy!! i love her so much and this song is amazing.

Are you into me boy? Or are you into someone else? Like maybe that boy …

what song are you obsessed with at the moment?


A Look Back Into My Past Week + Where I Am At


i am extremely sorry that i didn’t post yesterday and stick to my schedule! i have many reasons for it, but the main reason is school. it’s only been a week and i have been swamped by work that i am trying really hard to do the best in! so i’m sorry if i haven’t been posting as usual and if it continues that way!

so, i thought today would be another sit-down post where i just tell you a little bit about me!

current mood: the happiest i have ever been. 

it’s incredible! i am excited to go to school and i am making more and more friends, people who i have always wanted to talk to. last year was a tough year for me and i came home many days often crying and upset because my friendship had taken a turn for the worse and unfortunately i was often alone at lunch. but by the end of the year, i had made some amazing friends who i can see myself with for a very long time.

also, i am finally myself. i have always had this part of me that seemed hidden and being around these people finally allowed myself to be who i am and who i have always wanted to be comfortably. we are a group where we are focused on our studies, but we also recognise that having fun with friends is always the best! most days i hang out with my friends after school with enough time to come home and do schoolwork. we are non-judgemental and recognise each other’s differences. i love them all!!!

on the topic of meeting new people, today i became friends with someone who i had known through a friend, but we never actually talked. i realised how great she was! i’m hoping to meet many new people this year.

also, my classes this year are the best! my teachers are also amazing, but i often don’t mind going to class these days. i have many inside jokes with friends and myself that make the experience all the better and i am focusing much better on my studies.

i’m hoping 2018 is going to be my year!

how has your week been so far?

Music Monday 05/02/2018

hey, hey, hey! how have you been so far? i can’t believe a month has already gone by of 2018. far out!! 2019 will be right around the corner in no time at all. anywho, here is my music fix for this week!!

Open Water // The Citrus Clouds, Old Tribe • aaahh! this song just makes me feel so happy!!! happy aeva is the best aeva!

If you leave me out there, in the depths of my despair …

Staples // Jake Howden • his voice is so beautiful. i love his type of voice, so when i heard this song, i was instantly sold.

And you say, does it matter where we go from here …

Poison // Felicity • i’ve had this song for quite a while, but upon listening to it again, i realised how good it is!! her voice is a-mazing!

You’re like poison …

Paris in the Rain // Lauv • i love Lauv, there is no doubt! this song is so catchy (in a good way!!)

Anywhere with you feels like Paris in the rain …

Deliverance // RY X • i discovered this song after watching The 100 last year, but only really started appreciating it until now!! what a mistake! it’s so gooooooood!

I’ve been awake for deliverance …

bellyache // Billie Eilish • i listened to Ocean Eyes quite a while ago, but when i found out her age, i began to question my life choices considering she is the same age as me and has achieved so much. but she makes great content and THIS SONG IS MY FAVOURITE!!! i honestly just get up and dance around my room when i listen to this song. it’s dark and callous and wonderful.

Maybe it’s in the gutter, where I left my lover …

what music are you currently listening to?

i hope you enjoyed this week music!


The Super Blue Blood Moon

okay, to be honest with you guys, i was just really overwhelmed with school and getting used to new subjects and teachers that when i came home tonight, i just collapsed and couldn’t write a sufficient blog post.

buuuuuut, did you guys see the moon on wednesday night? it was the night before school and i didn’t go to sleep until 12:30am, so i was spent the next day.

however, i did take some great photos that i thought that maybe i can share with you?

they’re a bit blurry, but seeing the moon like this was a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity! it was like being in my own sci-fi film, or seeing mars from the distance!

if you didn’t know, i love photography, so this was an amazing experience to be able to document!!

did you see the super blue blood moon?

i promise that next week’s blog posts will be much more better because i will have the opportunity to do them over the weekend and put a lot of effort into them!

January Wrap Up and February Goals

ahh, my first wrap up of 2018! and a full month of me sticking to my schedule! whoooo!


books i’ve read this month …

  • Twelfth Night by William Shakespeare
  • Selected Poems by Gwen Harwood
  • Things Fall Apart by Chinua Achebe
  • Ready Player One by Ernest Cline
  • Simon vs. the Homo Sapiens Agenda
  • The Hate U Give by Angie Thomas
  • Holding Up the Universe by Jennifer Niven

i could have read a whoooooole lot more books, but school was super-duper stressful (even though it was the holidays – i can’t get any rest!)

favourite movies this month …

  • Unbroken – As a boy, Louis “Louie” Zamperini is always in trouble, but with the help of his older brother, he turns his life around and channels his energy into running, later qualifying for the 1936 Olympics. When World War II breaks out, Louie enlists in the military. After his plane crashes in the Pacific, he survives an incredible 47 days adrift in a raft, until his capture by the Japanese navy. Sent to a POW camp, Louie becomes the favorite target of a particularly cruel prison commander.

favourite TV shows this month …

i wasn’t able to watch too many TV shows. i am so so upset because there are a lot of things that i want to watch and i couldn’t. sad, sad, very sad.

favourite music this month …


books to be read this month …

  • The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho
  • Unearthed by Amie Kaufman and Meagan Spooner
  • One of Us Is Lying by Karen M. McManus

my goals for this month are …

  • keep up with the blogging streak!!
  • focus on school now that it is back in session.
  • just have fun with my friends because when you look back, that is what really counts.
  • be less frugal because it’s okay to spend money! 

what are your goals for february?

Check In: The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho

unfortunately, i start school in three days so life has been pretty hectic. this also means that i couldn’t listen to a lot of music (sad reacts only!). i thought, maybe i’ll do a quick check in, but my wednesday and friday posts should be pretty good! 🙂

The AlchemistPaulo Coelho’s masterpiece tells the mystical story of Santiago, an Andalusian shepherd boy who yearns to travel in search of a worldly treasure. His quest will lead him to riches far different—and far more satisfying—than he ever imagined. Santiago’s journey teaches us about the essential wisdom of listening to our hearts, of recognising opportunity and learning to read the omens strewn along life’s path, and, most importantly, to follow our dreams.

i haven’t really gotten into this one yet, having only just read a few meagre pages, but i think i’ll end up enjoying it.

i wanted to read it because it’s a classic and LOOK AT THAT 25th ANNIVERSARY COVER, HOT DAMN. it’s so beautiful!!

it’s not really my genre, but i’m hoping i’ll finish the book at least somewhat pleased. i have high expectations of this book because of the popularity surrounding it … fingers crossed! so far, the book is somewhat good. it’s not blowing me away. of course, this is translated to english, but i still don’t feel like, “wow!!!”. i have only read twenty or so pages, so we’ll see how it goes!

what is a book that you have/had high expectations of?

Simon vs. the Homo Sapiens Agenda by Becky Albertalli


oh my heart! i devoured this book, so i couldn’t write any notes on it like i usually would. i’m sorry if i’m a blubber-mouth in this review! this is NOT SPOILER-FREE! be careful!


Sixteen-year-old and not-so-openly gay Simon Spier prefers to save his drama for the school musical. But when an email falls into the wrong hands, his secret is at risk of being thrust into the spotlight. Now Simon is actually being blackmailed: if he doesn’t play wingman for class clown Martin, his sexual identity will become everyone’s business. Worse, the privacy of Blue, the pen name of the boy he’s been emailing, will be compromised.

With some messy dynamics emerging in his once tight-knit group of friends, and his email correspondence with Blue growing more flirtatious every day, Simon’s junior year has suddenly gotten all kinds of complicated. Now, change-averse Simon has to find a way to step out of his comfort zone before he’s pushed out—without alienating his friends, compromising himself, or fumbling a shot at happiness with the most confusing, adorable guy he’s never met. 

Rating: ★★★★★

Goodreads rating: 4.28
Published 7th April 2015, by Balzer + Bray
303 pages

this book is definitely on the top of my list. it’s funny, real and very necessary in our society nowadays.

okay, okay, settle your horses. i know you’re just as excited about this book (AND THE MOVIE) but i need to provide some context.

i wanted to read this book FOREVER. the hype surrounding it made me extremely interested, but there was one problem … i was broke! thankfully, i got this for Christmas and i instantly tore into it when i could.

i think this novel, for some reason, just spoke to me. i don’t know why, but when i finished this book, i felt sad to leave the world of Simon and i wanted to continue his journey of finding himself and dealing with his sexuality. this book tugged at all my heartstrings and i want to just read it and read it and read it.

i don’t even know where to begin.

maybe we can start at my first impressions?

i think the writing was simplistic. in the beginning, it annoyed me but as i became used to Simon’s world, i think the simplicity of the writing actually made me feel closer to the character because he spoke as if he was telling you his story. soon, i loved the little jokes and side-comments Simon would throw in and often found myself grinning.

also, this book is really relatable.

maybe that’s why i connected to it so much? it felt like an inside joke with yourself and the main character.

i loved this book so much because i also connected with the characters.

-Leah’s self-consciousness i understand because i’m self-conscious too and i feel socially anxious all the time. and i understand what she means about being left out because it’s happened to me too.
-i get Blue because he is quiet and shy and some of what he says i can see myself feeling too. and he has divorced parents and i know what he means about having to tell the same daunting thing two times instead of just sitting your parents down and blurting it out.
-and Simon, oh dear Simon. he has my entire heart because i also get him. i know this is little, but we have the same taste in music (shoutout to Sufjan Stevens!) and he loves music as much as i do and he makes playlists for how he is feeling and listens to music everyday. i’ve said it before, but music encompasses all the things i can’t say and i think that’s the same with Simon. and it’s just little things he says and does which makes me feel like, “yes, I get that, I totally get that”.

the romance killed me. in a good way. 

it was just SO DAMN ROMANTIC. i loved how Blue and Simon flirted through their emails because it was so cute and their relationship just sent my heart fluttering!

i don’t know if this is an unpopular opinion or not, but i sort of wished that Leah, if not ended up with, had a relationship with Nick. i feel bad for her, but hopefully we’ll see how it goes in the prequel to Simon vs. called Leah on the Offbeat.

but i will admit that the relationship between Abby and Nick was really cute, especially how they were describing what happened in the car. awwwww!

it addressed sexuality. 

“There shouldn’t even be a default”

i agree!! there shouldn’t be a default on anything: race, sexuality, looks … we should become all-inclusive for every. single. person. but i also agree with the whole premise that everyone should come out.

why is straight the normal and the default? from a young age, it was expected that i have a crush on a boy, so i created an ideal of having a boyfriend. my belief is that we shouldn’t pressure social constructs on children because that is what creates this silence about being who you are. we should all have to come out about our sexuality because no one deserves to be labelled something they are not.

i’m straight. but, as a teenager in my formative years, my ideas can change. plus, how do i really know i’m straight without working it out in my head? what if that is not the case? currently, i’m at a point in my life where i am questioning if what i believed in my childhood reflects who i am. and don’t be afraid to do that as well! question your sexuality because in the end, you will know. if you believe you’re straight, gay, bisexual, asexual, pan or anything else then good for you!! you deserve to be proud of yourself because dealing with your sexuality is at times draining. if you haven’t figured it out yet, you will and when you do, i think you will be the happiest you have ever been.

the novel also mentions a lot about the circumstances which gay people must deal with. such as religion or parents’ ideals. i also found it particularly evoking when Martin was angry and wrote that post on Tumblr about Simon being gay, whereupon Simon told him that it wasn’t his news to tell.

the plot was a big mush of cuteness and relatability and gahh, i loved it. 

i don’t know what to say except that I WISH I WAS LIVING IN THAT WORLD. the plot was perfect-o! what else to say except that it ticked all the boxes for me. i honestly can’t think of anything wrong. but maybe that is also because i didn’t take any notes …

either way, IT WAS SO GOOD.

can i be friends with everyone?

honestly, they are all just so hilarious and once again, relatable. i am just blubbering right now (like i said i would) but they were SO AMAZING. and original and unique. i loved them all soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much!!!!


okay, so i know this has nothing to do with the book, but it’s true!!! i had the chance to see an advanced screening of Simon vs. but I COULDN’T GO AND I AM KICKING MYSELF CONSTANTLY. i just can’t wait for March to roll around and then i can see all my bubs. my bub Keiynan Lonsdale is in it (if you follow my blog for a while, you will see my obsession!) AND HE IS PLAYING BRAM AND MY HEART COULD NOT BE HAPPIER and my other bub Nick Robinson is in it and he is THE CUTEST. AND ALL MY BUBS ARE IN IT. AND CAL IS EXACTLY HOW I IMAGINED (oh dear Miles Heizer, I am reunited with you once again). When I watch the movie, every single cast member will by my bub.

anyway, that’s a wrap on my review (which kinda makes me sad because it means this story is officially over!!!!). I LOVED THIS STORY SO MUCH. READ IT!!!!!

if you ever want to talk or just geek out about books and be friends, I am here!!! also, whatever your situation is, know that countless of people are here to support you.